A new week starts tomorrow

It's official. I hate winter.

I hate winter. I hate cold weather. I hate it.

I didn't do anything active while in Alaska and nothing has changed since I've been home. Tomorrow will mark a week since I've been back and, by golly, there are going to be some changes!! I think my main problem (as of lately, anyway) has been that I'm starting to have second thoughts about Paris. I have to raise $4900 and I currently have $2605 left to go. I'm not feeling to optimistic about my chances of raising enough money to get there. ALSO it's the first race out of the three I have to choose from which also means that the training is increasing more than the other two races. I feel like I'm not an advanced enough runner to keep up with the training for this race. What to do...what to do...

Since I have started to change my mind, I've gotten lazy, lost, and unmotivated. I need to decide what I'm doing and what I'm capable of doing and start fresh. The other two races I have to choose from are Vancouver and Ogden. I have a friend running Ogden and would have a blast running with her and I would have only had to have raise $1000 for that race. Which means I could call it quits on my fundraising and just focus on my training, which I would very much like to do!! But I also feel like if I did that, I'd be selling myself short. I would LOVE to go to Paris. LOVE!!! So I don't want to give up yet.

Also, last month I mailed out about 100 letters to businesses and friends and family and I have gotten 1 response. ONE. I need to get creative to get some money coming in...

Regardless of what I decide, I seriously need to get my butt in gear. It's COLD outside and it's seriously draining me and leaving me wanting to nothing else than sit on the couch under a blanket with my dogs nearby. UGH. I have to break out of this slump. And I'm hoping tomorrow I can treat Monday like a NEW day and NEW week and get a good routine going!!!

I am also starting classes tomorrow and my grandma is coming to stay with me for 6 weeks on Tuesday. I think I'm just overly tired from my trip to Alaska and stressed about school starting. I need to calm down, get my head straight, and get back in the game.

Time for bed.